Decaying Wonderland - Oldhammer meets Secession

[AranaszarSzuur]

I guess that's the end then. I have a few months left to live and then that's the end.

It's just impossible to go against the core values of the community which is leaving its own to die. The social Darwinist indoctrination is just too strong and even if for a moment people get convinced to do the right thing, they end up reverting back to the ideology of survival of the fittest.

Disheartening.

So, that's the end. Goodbye. I'm still on Ko-fi if anyone still cares.

I have a bit of a slowdown in art production since I started suffering from Vyrus MMXIX 9 days ago. Really nasty. I don't have fever and much aches any more but I still haven't recovered and I feel weak and have to spend hours in bed. So, getting back into form will take me some time.

IMPORTANT: So, yeah as 3 months have passed since my mother has finished that large commission, the scale has slid again from "SAFE" to "DANGER". I feel really distressed lately. Pretty much whole 20231215 and 20231216 was one big panic attack. Knowing that the society wants me dead for being disabled and that if I won't find help I have a few months left to live is unbearable.
So please consider donating:

https://ko-fi.com/illuminationsofeternalwarfare

Thanks to your comment I ended up deciding to look more into composition. I got The Painter's Secret Geometry: A Study of Composition in Art by Charles Bouleau and then after I realized it's very advanced, I got Pictorial Composition: An Introduction Henry Rankin Poore, both of which were recommended by a classical painter youtuber I watch.
I got to page 20 of the first but got interrupted by the Vyrus.
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I'm currently reading Pictorial Composition and doing exercises in composition. This one is much more accessible so I'll read it first:

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I hope it will help me to make better Oldhammer artworks.

Waste of time and money, no matter how much I try to improve, people want me dead.