AranaszarSzuur
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Nightmare
Decaying Wonderland
Nightmare 2019AD
Hello, I'm a disabled artist, not fit for work since I was a teenager. During high school I decided I need to become an artist since I couldn't count on getting and keeping a normal job. Some time has passed. I was initially struggling with becoming an artist, a story I will describe later in more detail, but most important was the influence of Grimdark. Initially, artists like Karl Kopinski and David Gallagher.
In 2008 I discovered Oldhammer and my idols like Wil Rees, Ian Miller and Tony Hough. It gave me a new direction to develop my art. At that time I went to a 2 year advertisement college because of drawing and computer graphics classes. I managed to improve my drawing skills a lot thanks to a fundamentals of drawings textbook I had.
At the same time I started helping in my mother's company doing CAD drafting in an obscure cheap CAD program. The amount of work quickly became not enough and I had last bit of it in 2022.
Somewhere mid-2019 I embarked on Quest to Git Gud.
At that point my work most funded by my mother. During first several months of quest to git gud I used up about 70 gel pens and 11 100 page sketchbooks and I also bought a pen and ink drawing workbook.I was going to do groceries about every second day and I would stop in coffee houses and draw there. Getting coffee and sometimes a cake would make the miserable grind bearable.
Here is archive of my Oldhammer works from that period:
Artist's Quest to Git Gud Archive 20200128 : Illuminator of Eternal Warfare : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
This is a cut-down version of old archive of my blog. It covers the first stage of my quest to git gud. It's mostly Wh40k 1st ed fanart but also some original...
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My study diary:
Artist's Quest to Git Gud Archive 2 20200131 : Illuminator of Eternal Warfare : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
Another perspective on my Quest to Git Gud. Another art blog which was where I made bulk of my productivity reports back then. I sort of abandoned it in late...
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Zine with drawings depicting some visits to coffee houses:
Coffee Mouse : Illuminator of Eternal Warfare : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
The Coffee Mouse page is a look into the first stage of Quest to Git Gud from perspective of drawings depicting coffee house visits. It...
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I finished the first stage of the quest in January, 2020. In 20190626-20200125, I have done 339h of drawing, including 166h of grinding drawing exercises.
This was my most intensive productivity period.
Later I started doing much less since I didn't get anything from it and deleted most of my works from my blog in July, 2021.
Later in September 2021-2024 my mother's business started doing much worse and I had to partially rely on community help to survive since I was one of the 85% of unemployed people in Country 404 that were condemned to starve in the name of the Nazi ideology of useless eaters. With the help I managed to get private diagnosis for ADHD and general psychological evaluation and together with my high school era papers get not fit for work degree since before 2006 which allowed me to get a disability pension of half of minimal wage.
During that time I produced many new artworks.
These can be seen in my ko-fi gallery and were uploaded in 100dpi lossless images in archives:
Archive 2023 : "Illuminator of Eternal Warfare" : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
An archive of my crowdfunded works of 2023.Thanks to all who donated an made it possible.I have made a lot of progress during that year.If you want to support...
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Archive 2024 : "Illuminator of Eternal Warfare" : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
An archive of my crowdfunded works of 2024.Thanks to all who donated an made it possible.If you want to support creating more, donate...
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Also, my works from 2021-202307:
Nightmare Artworks Archive 20230704 : Illuminator of Eternal Warfare : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
My works from Nightmare series archived from my tumblr blog together with their descriptions.I was intending to make a zine but I guess this automatically made...
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Decaying Wonderland Artworks Archive 20230704 : Illuminator of Eternal Warfare : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
My works from Decaying Wonderland series archived from my tumblr blog together with their descriptions.I was intending to make a zine but I guess this...
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Nightmare 2019AD Artworks Archive 20230704 : Illuminator of Eternal Warfare : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
My works from Nightmare 2019AD series archived from my tumblr blog together with their descriptions.I was intending to make a zine but I guess this...
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Nightmare 2044 Artworks Archive 20230704 : Illuminator of Eternal Warfare : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
My works from Nightmare 2044 series archived from my tumblr blog together with their descriptions.I was intending to make a zine but I guess this automatically...
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Please consider donating to support production of more high effort art:
When I don't have work budget, I usually just draw slop, since that's how I draw for my own enjoyment, self-expression:
